Mananananananana BATMAN!

Yes, its true. Today is SUPERHERO DAY! haha, man do I love this school. Of course, everyone who actually dresses up is a complete loser but hey, its what I do. :p Ha, I'm Batman today, if you couldn't tell. Everyone dressed up as Batman.... Not Cool guys. Monday was Sports Day, Tuesday was Hippie Day [lame] today is Superhero Day, Tomorrow is 80's Day [:D!] and Friday is SPIRIT DAY! Its upsetting though how no one dresses up for spirit week anymore. :[
Anyways, I'm in Civil Engineering right now, and theres a sub. Mmmmhm, I spent 2 1/2 hours last night finishing up my project, and HE'S NOT HERE. Urg! So the sub was like, "finish your project if you haven't already." And I'm like "Are you kidding me?!" I spend an hour and a half on the bus to Bath yesterday, watched JV lose, then we lost [wt?! its BATH] and then spent an hour and a half on the way home istening to heavy metal and screamo. Oh, and we listened to Coach tell us over and over about how "he'd never see the day when we lost to bath, how we've punished ourselves enough, and the embarrassment we'll face tomorrow telling everyone we lost to Bath. Not. Cool.
So, today is a day for me to be all "woo!" and therefore:
OMG YAY! I developed my film today! I did so well, granted I took 15 minutes in the dark dark room, and then I cut off maggie's butt in the last photo, but it was fun! I was dancing the whole time i was adding fixer, stop and developer. :) haha, man I love my life. I ran down the hall this morning singing "Mananananananananananana BATMAN!!!" and people just stared. All my friends are like "omg I love you." Haha, yeahh, I'm cool.
Well, I have nothing to do right now, sooo yup. That's my story for today.

Speech & Debate

We have to write a Eulogy. Ironic, he gives us the assignment the week of the 1 year anniversary of Uncle Jim's death. I've decided I want to speak about Uncle Jim, that way everybody can know a little bit about him, and think "Hey, she had a pretty cool uncle."
I miss him. That day I didn't cry. Mom cried, Mimi and Papa cried, Aunt Kate cried, and I'm sure many others cried as well, but not me. I got to watch a kitten whose front paws don't work, roll around & push himself across the floor to play with his owner. I played in the big HF-L vs Livonia game, and we lost 3-1. I came home and watched my mom tear up then breakdown. I still didn't cry. I still feel like I have to be the one who doesn't cry, the one that has to be strong for everyone else. I don't like being sad, I really don't. I wanted to cry, I wanted to just sit against my locker on the floor and just bawl my eyes out. I teared up a little when Kevin asked me what was wrong then just hugged me till I felt better.

I don't want to be sad, but I am.
I want to make everything better, but I can't.
I want to go back in time and somehow find a way to fix what was broken, and I know thats impossible.
I want him here, I wish it had never happend to us.
But thats not how it works, we have to live with it everyday, and hope that it'll get better as time goes on.
I guess I'll have to be a bit more patient, because it still hurts to much to think, to wonder "if."

I love you Uncle Jim, and I miss you every day.
Theres not a day that goes by where I don't grab the heart around my neck and wish you were still here.
"Where'd all the good people go?"

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So I guess I had a bad dream yesterday night. I was staying up late because I wanted to watch the WWE shows we've recorded before Sean deleted them. So, I'm staying up as late as I can and I fall asleep. Now, this is the part where I have my bad dream; well, my mom says it was a bad one so I'll take her word for it. Here's my dream:

I was sitting at the end of the kitchen table at Mimi's house where my dad sits every Sunday. Then to my left, where Mimi normally sits is Uncle Jim, and next to him is Aunt Kate. Were all talking and laughing, then I guess I'm eating something so there I am talking and sitting with whatever I'm eating. Then Uncle Jim asks for a piece of whatever I'm eating so I rip off a piece of my food and give it to him. Now I notice Aunt Kate's looking at me weird and then she starts to cry, so I give her the "What are you giving me that look for?" look, and I look back to where Uncle Jim is supposed to be, and he's not there anymore. Then I start crying along with Aunt Kate. Then I wake up and I'm bawling my eyes out at like, 3 in the morning.
Not the most pleasant dream I've had, but I didn't think it was bad. That's like, the first dream I've had with him in it since he passed away.
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Next Wednesday is the 1 year "anniversary" of his passing away. [Already?!] I have to play Livonia; HF-L's main rivals that same day. Not fun. This week has not started out great for me.



Oh, won't this be fun.

Vs. Byron- Bergen

It did not go too well in the "winning" department. However, we played phenomenally and I was able to start and play in each of the three games. [I went back row for Camaryn when she was done in the front row] I also had an AMAZING kill; I was like "WOAH! Where did that come from?!?!" I was practically shaking. Coach is proud of me for doing what he asked and playing well. Hopefully I'll do well in practice so I'm able to (partially) start again. :] It was a lot of fun.

Tonight I'm missing Unforgiven. Its sad that I'm a junior in high school and I loooove WWE. I was so upset when I found out I couldn't go. Sean is still there, and I'm here. WOO stinkin HOO. It'll be one of my goals from now on to go to a WWE match whether its Friday Night Smackdown or Monday Night RAW or a combinatioln of all three: Smackdown, RAW or TNA. Yep, I will go to a show if my life depends on it. Which it does.

So I'm off to buy some more music, shower, then go to bed. Because Kirsten is sleeeeeepppyyyyy. [yawn] See? Haha, G'night. :D

Varsity!

Yay! I made the Varsity Volleyball Team! I'm sooo happy, I do believe I would have cried if I hadn't made it.
Ah, today is good. I have two new books to read before school starts :] and my brother and I are watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer! Oh, happy day. Ooh! Plus I made brownies and theres Apple Cinnamon French Toast sticks in the freezer! :D!
I so totally love my life right now.
And right now, at this very moment I'm uploading pictures from Clare's birthday party up in the Adirondacks. Awoot woot.



I'm not that great at summing things up and putting in conclusions soooo, yeah.
Bye!

Goal Sheets

Bore me. :P But anyways, Tryouts seemed to go a lot faster today than they did yesterday. Today he had us work on our serving: 20 had to be within the foul line [basketball court] & the end line of the volleyball court, 20 had to fall short & be before the attack line, then 10 had to go deep, and have top spin. It. Was. HARD. Then we worked on our blocking & our passing skills. At the end coach pulled us all into a circle while he talked. And talked. And talked some more. :P He pointed out that I was the only one that almost hated him, in front of everyone, which blew because he said the other girl that said he almost hated him had apologized. HA! I just stood there and said "Almost." Don't get me wrong, he's an amazing coach and I could learn so much from him, I just find him disagreeable... I think that's how I would put it. Tomorrow's the last day of tryouts though, so I can just grin and bear it. I really hope that I make the team. I'm pretty sure I would die of boredom and school work if I didn't have a fall sport to do. Plus, I'd be way out of shape & I'd be miserable. So, fingers crossed!

Today was fun. I woke up around 11:30 am. Hehe :] I ate some of my favorite breakfast in the world [apple cinnamon French toast!] while I watched Ella Enchanted on Disney Channel. Picked Chelsea up, I drove us to practice [I'm actually kind of getting good at it!] then came home to shower and head over to Mimi & Papa's for dinner. My Papa's cousin Anthony and his wife Lynn and daughter Lily are here for a visit. It was a ton of fun, we had shishkabobs [?], I tried Lamb [ick.] without knowing it. After dinner, Mimi, Lynn, Lily and I went to Borders. I found a great cookbook for my friend Clare, since she's a vegan and she can't have any animal products whatsoever. I'm going back to buy that once i cash my checks, plus i get to use a coupon! Haha. I bought four comic books: one Scooby Doo, two Batman, and one Looney Toons for my friend Chelsea. I plan on giving it to her after she makes the Varsity Volleyball team. I also bought two books from the Clique Series: "The Pretty Committee Strikes Back" and "Bratfest at Tiffany's." I've read them all out of order so I'm missing some crucial moments, but I'm hopefully going to be all caught up by the time school rolls around because I hardly read at all during the school year. Who has time? After we got back from Borders, we all had dessert; raspberries in cream. I liked the raspberry part, but the cream part sort of tasted like a cheese and the texture was all funky so i just at the raspberries and Lily finished off the cream left over.

I learned how to play Poker tonight! I'm so excited, I learned Five Draw, Five open and Seven open [terminology?]. Lily, Anthony and I played for about an hour & a half, and it was hilarious. Lily and I had the same cards 2 or 3 times during the games. The last game we played; Seven open, we had two cards face down, then three cards facing up, and those three cards were all the same. Anthony was laughing so hard, then we all fell into a fit of laughter. Everybody else was in the living room watching the Olympics. :P


Well, I do believe I have to get this goal sheet in by tomorrow at practice so I've posted all I wanted to today. Tomorrow's post will most likely be about the Adirondacks and how I did in tryouts. Night! :)

First Day

of Varsity Volleyball Tryouts. Man, it was insane. Coach "Yucko" made us run 1 1/2 miles in less than 14 minutes, and I couldn't even use my Ipod! I was practically dying by the end because I had to sing aloud to keep a steady, constant pace. Well, I don't believe i can finish this post because the power is flickering on & off. I'll post in the morning. :] Night.