Midterm grades are in and the only thing they're telling me is that I suck.
I try, I really do. But the only response to my infuriating stupidity is that I need to study more (meaning I need to focus on what I'm doing and not sit on the couch watching t.v. all the time). Honestly, I don't want to read a book, and then analyze it through twenty journal entries with quotes supporting specific themes and motifs. Its not fun. This then leads to me reading the book (which I loved btw) and not writing anything down because I wasn't reading to critique or find hidden meanings in the book. Its kind of painful to have to sit down and think, "Well why did she pick the color red? What does this symbolize? Why does the color red serve ANY PURPOSE AT ALL? Why am I doing this? I have no freaking clue why she chose this to describe this and mean this, this and this!" I feel like an idiot sometimes because I don't think of things that my teacher wants me to come up with on my own. And what do I get out of this? A major headache, the need to much on snacks as I think, and several hours of lost sleep. It's unfortunate that I can't afford to have senioritis. A full schedule with no study halls, and an independent study program gives me no time to think, get everything sorted out and finished.
But other than that, I've been accepted into three schools; Brockport, Cortland and Marquette, I have a senior breakfast this Friday at Bristol Mountain where I will then proceed to ski ALL DAY :) and I have a plan with my friend Ireland to dress up in insane clothing (following the theme of Alice in Wonderland, coming out March 5th starring Johnny Depp!), go out to dinner and see the movie. I plan on dressing as the Mad Hatter, who is played (coincidentally) by Johnny Depp. It is going to be sooo much fun- I cannot wait! :D
February break is arriving soon, and hopefully it will allow me to catch up on my journals and such, as well as having my room painted and cleaned so that I am no longer allergic to all the nastiness in it.
And now, it is time for me to work on my book project for advanced drawing & painting, and my physics packet which will most likely cause my brain to fizzle out and shut down.
2 comments:
Don't feel bad Peanut. I once got to the last page of the book and read the sentence "John said...." I went "Who the hell is John?" I felt like an idiot when I went back and he was the main character of the book. Just keep chugging away. June will be here soon enough.
I agree that writing about the book can suck out a lot of the joy of reading it.
MARQUETTE!!!!!!!!! ;-)
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