College

This summer was a blur.
The Fall came and went, and colleges were visited.

I'm finished with all the college applications now. The deadline for rolling or regular admission is today. So now all I have to do is wait for an answer from the five schools I applied to. [Hobart & William Smith, Binghamton, Cortland, Marquette, and Brockport (as a back up)]

The first snow was today!! :) I wore white to celebrate the occasion of December 1st. It was so pretty outside this morning! I'm so excited for Christmas- I've already finished shopping for Chelsea, Merrie, and Sean. I'm so excited! YAY!
Last night I put all the Christmas music I had on my iPod :P. Right now I'm in Environmental. And the set is going to end. So I'm going to sign off.
Peace!

The Last Spirit Day

This week was Spirit Week. Monday was Sports Day, Tuesday; Cowboy/ Cowgirl Day, Wednesday; Retro Day, Thursday; Disney/ Superhero Day, and Friday is Spirit Day. The Last High School Spirit Day. I missed Retro Day :/ I was in Cortland looking at the Jets' Training Camp- :P Four Colleges down, five to go.
So Chelsea, Kelly, Joey, Gabe, Ireland, and a bunch of other people made Senior shirts and that's what a bunch of us wore today. Written on them were a bunch of inside jokes between friends from over the summer and last year. I covered mine in Sharpie highlighter :) Seniors totally killed today: we owned in the bat race, the toilet paper race, and the cheer off :D! Yayyy. I was pretty loud today. Everybody got mad at me because I was "Screaming in their ears"- blah blah. I'm sorry if I'm louder than all of you and no, I will not stop no matter how many times you tell me to "shut the hell up." This year we weren't interrupted like we were last year for the individual sports teams- all the seniors came down on to the gym floor for the pie eating contest while Jenny (last year's captain) was still talking. I had a little chat with Mr. Nelson after that. So we went down to the floor, and JV decided to come too. JV stands up. They aren't supposed to go down to the floor- which is new btw, it looks amazing. So it was a pretty good Last Spirit Day.

Legal?!

Birthday Week:
I finished my Civil Engineering (& Architecture) exam- I think I did sooooo much better on the part B and part C. I think I do a lot better when I can solve equations rather than pick answers... I got the same grade on the multiple choice as Joey! HA TAKE THAT JOEY. It still kinda sucks though, because we both did worse than this one kid who NEVER paid any attention in class, but at least we didn't fail! :D! I'm nervous for my grade now.
Thursday, I had my first road test. I failed. Bummin' man. I'm scheduled again for the 24th of July in the same place so hopefully I won't fail, and I'll be able to go straight to my senior license.
My birthday was Saturday! I'm seventeen and legal in NY State! haha.
Chelsea had a bonfire on Saturday night, half for my birthday of course, but nobody really knew (s'all good) and she made me a confetti cake (from scratch). It was yummy! She also gave me the best card EVER. We love going to Tops in Avon and spending hours listening to the cards that play music and whatnot, so she bought me a card with robots on it, and when you open it, it plays Mr. Roboto by the Styx. :) I love it, but I accidently left it at her house... oops?!
Today Mimi and Papa came over for a delicious dinner (some kind of chicken- it was SO good) and Mimi made me a confetti cake too! It was so good! Then me and Sean created Wii Mii's for Mimi and Papa- I totally nailed Mimi's Mii. Haha. We all had fun playing on the Wii.
I love my presents; I got the latest James Patterson- Maximum Ride book (MAX), I got a really comfortable pair of flip flops from Bath & Body Works, a giftcard for Aeropostale, running headphones and an armband iPod holder so I don't have to hold my iPod when I run. (Thank you Momma!)
So pretty much over all it was a good birthday.
Plus, I don't have to get up tomorrow morning :) hehe.

Fidelity- Regina Spektor

BLARG!

The last couple of weeks were a blur.
This week is insane.
Next week, it'll be so bad I'll want to cry.
I'll want this year to be over halfway through my first exam, but I'll have 4 more to go.

Took the Civil Engineering/ Architecture test today (Part A; multiple choice). Pretty sure I'm going to want to cry after DeCarlo reads off my grade...
I've got to work at 4 today until 8, finish my studyguide (very long packet) for U.S. History tomorrow, and study for a PreCalc test tomorrow. I hate logs oh so very much.
Thursday I have my road test and I really hope I pass because I'm not the only one sick of having to have a parent in the car.
Friday is the last day of school. Oh Joy! But then that means exams start the next week. I have Monday off. Tuesday I have U.S. History in the Morning. Wednesday I have Part I of the English exam in the morning, then Chemistry (with the negative curve) in the afternoon. Thursday morning I have Part II of the English exam. I have Friday off :). Then its the weekend and I'm taking a break to relax. Monday I have my PreCalc exam. I'll be crying again.
And to add to all that, I'll be working AND I have to find time in between to run so that my dad doesn't absolutely kick my butt in the 5K up in Utica. Fun, fun, fun.... I should probably start working out on the Wii more...
Oh. My. Goodness.
(Takes a deep breath...)

Sean and I saw up last weekend. :D! Favorite movie ever. I'm going to buy it as soon as it comes out on DVD. I LOVE THIS MOVIE (squirrel!) It was hysterical- Sean and I were laughing the whole time, except for at the beginning, where I'm pretty sure we were both sniffling and trying not to cry in public.... aha. If you have not seen this movie, I recommend you go see it right now. Don't even bother to log off your computer, just go. Don't even close this screen, just go.


I mean it.


GO SEE UP! :D

Hahaha, My birthday's this weekend too. Chelsea said she was going to have a bonfire and mix it with my birthday, so she'd have to make a cake... But this morning Ireland said it was going to be on the 20th... don't see how that's going to work. Oh well.

Well this set's over, so PEACE OUT. Its time for English.

Fire Burnin' - Sean Kingston

The Fear

"Sometimes you have to lose yourself to find yourself."

Being on your own sometimes breaks you down, but it can also make you stronger. Learning how to depend on yourself is one of the greatest things you can learn. Sure, people can always help you to get what you want or need, but then how do you know whether or not you could have done it by yourself?
Now, this is going to sound bad, but lately I've been just hanging around by myself while my friends go do the things they do. And you know what? I'm perfectly fine not being included. I like being by myself. I have plenty of time to think, draw, read, watch movies, do things I can't really do when I'm chilling with my friends.

I don't know what right and whats real anymore,
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore.
When do you think it will all become clear?
Cause I'm being taken over by the fear.

Lily Allen- the Fear

I'm Not Moving

It seems that when someone you love goes away, everything else seems to stop. No, time doesn't actually freeze, but you're just going through the motions. You don't see as clearly or as bright, until that person returns and your life is once again filled with color.
This hazy state is maddening. He's never coming back. Does anybody else really get that he can't and is not coming back?! I'm here, stationary, while everything around me is moving fast. Life will eventually pass, and I've just been frozen. I'll forever be waiting here, in the hopes that maybe, just maybe, this is all a bad dream or a joke or something. At any time he'll jump out and say "Gotcha!" but it's not going to happen.
I'm stuck here while everyone else is moving, because he left. I'm not moving. I will never move.




The Man Who Can't Be Moved- The Script

College... (dun dun dunnn)

I'm a bit frightened, and totally psyched at the same time! I've been looking at schools all across the country that have good architecture programs as well as others just in case I decide to change my major (hopefully I won't!). I found this really nice school that has awesome Architecture programs as well as tons of art, math and science courses- which is great! And the snag: its the University of Washington State. Far away, yes, but also the home of Starbucks! and only 2 hours from the coast, and an hour from Port Angeles, and located right in Seattle. This is (at this particular moment) my dream college. :D! Yay!
Theres also another great school in Southern California (the Los Angeles area ;) ) and theres a few worth looking into closer to home, but still near the coast, in the Carolinas. I have an idea of where I would like to go to college- somewhere near water, and tons of trees and wildlife. Add in another plus for Washington- it has tons of parks, trails and outdoor activities to keep me active, while not feeling stuck in a small town. :P (No offense to HF-L or Lima, I just feel kind of smothered by small town-ness) Another plus for Washington State: College in the city, but a weekend getaway on the coast where there are no tall buildings or main roads!
-I think I'm getting obsessed...-

Ohmigosh! So today in Civil Engineering & Architecture, Mr. DeCarlo had pulled out all these old blueprints from as early as the 70's. Haha :P But it was totally cool! I found blueprints for the school from 1995, and a plan for this huge house on Rush Mendon Road (The Meisenzahl [sp?] Residence) and it was SICK. I really wish we did that kind of drawing- all by hand- in class instead of on the computer where I don't know how to do anything, I haven't really "made" anything because I don't know how to render my projects. It sucks being dumb in this area. So anyways, I sent a bunch of pictures to mom on my phone :P haha. Oh, that reminds me- I gotta find some money for dinner tonight.... :/ eek! Eh, oh well. Skiing should be fun tonight. It's sunny outside right now and the skies are kind of clear, so hopefully it won't be too cold! :)

Uncle Jim's hat won't fit my head. :P It's as tight as it will go too! Haha, man I thought my head was bigger...
Today's song is: My Life Would Suck Without You- Kelly Clarkson
I love it- its so fun and upbeat and it makes me want to just stop what I'm doing, turn up my music, and DANCE. Ah, I love music like this. I think you might want to go listen now :)

A Little Odd..?

Forgive my babbling, I feel like I need to get this off my chest.

Just recently, I bought the first book in the Twilight series. I read it in one day. I love books like this; stories that have legends of vampires and werewolves that actually exist in our world- they aren't just figures of our imagination. However, I've never felt this sad after reading a book. After reading Twilight and New Moon, I find myself desperately wishing that vampires like Edward Cullen and his family, and werewolves like Jacob and his pack actually existed. After reading Harry Potter, I hoped that somewhere, magic actually was practised and that I could someday find it. But this Twilight series made me terribly upset because the story was just so perfectly written, I could play out everything in my head. Now I feel like there's a hole that I can't fill because stories like this are just that: stories and nothing more. And after I was done reading both of the first two books, I cried because I knew I was being ridiculous. Things like this don't actually happen. Stephenie Meyer made this up from her imagination, and it would never come true no matter how much I wish it would.
Since there are four books in the series and I've only read two, I'm driving myself nuts trying to get my hands on the third and fourth books. I want to know if Bella ends up marrying Edward, if Victoria is finally caught and killed, if Jacob forgives Bella, and if Bella finally gets her wish of becoming a vampire. (There are plenty more questions, but too many more to list)
I feel like I need to grow up because even if I describe how I feel to my friends, they won't understand. I've always wanted to believe that theres magic and mystical things in our world that we don't know about. I want to find it and prove that vampires, werewolves, witches, wizards, magic, fairies, trolls, all that fairytale stuff actually exist.
Now I'm thinking I belong in a rubber room, because only crazy talk like this. Maybe it's unhealthy for me to encourage thinking things like this by reading books that contain these characters I wish were alive so badly... Not much of what I said even compares to the thoughts that race through my mind when I think of the possibilities that things like this are real. All of this is just scattered, general thoughts, but I feel it relates enough to what I'm feeling inside.
Hopefully after I read the remaining books in the series, this feeling will go away. I don't favor it too much. I feel sad and depressed because my imagination runs wild with the thoughts of how much I want these things to be real.
Why did I have to be so obsessed with the supernatural?!
I blame Disney for planting these ideas in my head. :/