The Fear

"Sometimes you have to lose yourself to find yourself."

Being on your own sometimes breaks you down, but it can also make you stronger. Learning how to depend on yourself is one of the greatest things you can learn. Sure, people can always help you to get what you want or need, but then how do you know whether or not you could have done it by yourself?
Now, this is going to sound bad, but lately I've been just hanging around by myself while my friends go do the things they do. And you know what? I'm perfectly fine not being included. I like being by myself. I have plenty of time to think, draw, read, watch movies, do things I can't really do when I'm chilling with my friends.

I don't know what right and whats real anymore,
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore.
When do you think it will all become clear?
Cause I'm being taken over by the fear.

Lily Allen- the Fear

I'm Not Moving

It seems that when someone you love goes away, everything else seems to stop. No, time doesn't actually freeze, but you're just going through the motions. You don't see as clearly or as bright, until that person returns and your life is once again filled with color.
This hazy state is maddening. He's never coming back. Does anybody else really get that he can't and is not coming back?! I'm here, stationary, while everything around me is moving fast. Life will eventually pass, and I've just been frozen. I'll forever be waiting here, in the hopes that maybe, just maybe, this is all a bad dream or a joke or something. At any time he'll jump out and say "Gotcha!" but it's not going to happen.
I'm stuck here while everyone else is moving, because he left. I'm not moving. I will never move.




The Man Who Can't Be Moved- The Script